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Full Title :: With Eyes Sewn Shut, I've Never Felt More Awake
The feeling of suffocation,
Not of the physical kind,
But of the kind that holds tight onto your soul,
So tightly that you think it will never let go.
The feeling of fear,
Not of the immediate danger kind,
But the kind that leaves you questioning
Everything and fearing the worst will come true.
It's as if my day is nothing but a nightmare,
And sleep is the escape from all the suffering.
Thinking only makes it seem less hopeful
With the only solutions being permanent solutions
That even the most regretful
Wouldn't be able to take back.
That endless darkness and comfort of the mind at
Rest seems to be the best to escape from the
Constant fear and pain of being fully awake
And knowing that the nightmare is true.
It leaves one to wonder if there's a way to always be at rest,
And to open one's eyes if they get a visit from regret.
The feeling of suffocation,
Not of the physical kind,
But of the kind that holds tight onto your soul,
So tightly that you think it will never let go.
The feeling of fear,
Not of the immediate danger kind,
But the kind that leaves you questioning
Everything and fearing the worst will come true.
It's as if my day is nothing but a nightmare,
And sleep is the escape from all the suffering.
Thinking only makes it seem less hopeful
With the only solutions being permanent solutions
That even the most regretful
Wouldn't be able to take back.
That endless darkness and comfort of the mind at
Rest seems to be the best to escape from the
Constant fear and pain of being fully awake
And knowing that the nightmare is true.
It leaves one to wonder if there's a way to always be at rest,
And to open one's eyes if they get a visit from regret.
Written during a time that my days brought much grief and pain, but sleep would be my escape. And yes, I was suicidal during that point(this was written in January.) Don't worry, I'm not anymore, and I rather enjoy my days (:
Enjoy!
Enjoy!
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Love the title, and very well written as always 
Can definitely relate, when I am afraid of something, thinking just makes it worse. Sometimes it comes out of nowhere, the fear, sometimes it happens when I observe too much, but something's that instantly trigger me are balloons and windchimes... 
Traumatic things from my past are linked, but yeahh. This reminds me of how I feel before I have an anxiety/panic attack 
Glad to hear you don't feel suicidal anymore though ! !
Can definitely relate, when I am afraid of something, thinking just makes it worse. Sometimes it comes out of nowhere, the fear, sometimes it happens when I observe too much, but something's that instantly trigger me are balloons and windchimes... Traumatic things from my past are linked, but yeahh. This reminds me of how I feel before I have an anxiety/panic attack Glad to hear you don't feel suicidal anymore though ! !